Once I am in it
It is an ocean
And I am in it
Glowing, unboned, light unfiltered,
An alien weightless in the deep.
But before I am in it
I must drown
And it is a violence I
Visit upon myself;
I am my own current,
A rip tide pulling
Unraveling threads – these yarns –
A life unfinished
That
Stitch me together.
There is no peace in surrender
When to surrender means
Lungs full of water
Cracking
Into the sea shot through by light
I’m not saving myself
I am only
In it.
©K Paige Medina | 17 May 2018
